Birthday Special | Musings by Sushant Singh Rajput
It's tough. It's tough when you have to muster up the courage and write for someone, whose incredible work on the big screen would make a million hearts skip a beat. For someone who was so pure at heart, and incredibly passionate about his work. For someone, who would always warmly greet you with the brightest smile and a twinkle in the eye. You know why this process is so difficult? Because it feels so arduous, linking words like 'was' or 'no more' with an individual - who feels like he is very much around. Sushant Singh Rajput may have crossed the bridge and landed among the stars, to explore the universe (just the way he liked); but his untimely and unfortunate demise continues to pierce our hearts even today. I fondly remember texting or tweeting the actor on his birthday, and receiving the sweetest responses (something I terribly missed since the last 1-2 years, and shall now miss forever). His kindness was always a class apart, and so was his remarkable intelligence, whereby the man could discuss Shakespeare to Saturn in a single breath. I thoroughly enjoyed my interactions with the man, whom I fondly called 'Bright Star' (and rightly so). Little did I know that the star would find his way in the universe so soon.
Honestly, I couldn't get myself to write any feature or tribute in 2020. Perhaps, I wasn't ready. Or, maybe I could not weave words together to explain my state of mind. However, January 21 marks SSR's 35th birthday. On this special day, I decided to put together some fond memories and quotes by the maverick, from our conversations and interview archives. His words were powerful. Strong enough to always leave an impact. And on his birthday, if there is anything I would like to celebrate, it would be his 'Words' or as he would say - 'Musings'. And no, I wouldn't call it a 'Birth Anniversary' or 'Tribute', because the brightest stars shine - they never die.
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Was it a challenge to essay two completely different characters in the same film?
In your career so far, you have opted for unconventional films and roles. How do you approach such characters or prepare for it?
My character (Raabta) was filled with aspects and situations that I have personally not dealt with
Fan Question
The film is a modern take on reincarnation. Basically, what we are trying to portray is - if there is something called as pure love, it doesn’t dilute with time. So, be it one life or multiple lives. Even if you don’t remember what happened in the previous life, you have a tendency to get close to someone without any reason. You just don’t like somebody without any reason. At the same time, during flashback, you would see everything that is there in those 20 – 24 minutes. The world, those people; everything we see and are dealing with in that world has been created from scratch. Both the characters that I essay in this film talk and behave differently. In the same way, there is no similarity between the past life and the present life. But, if you look through things, still, everything is connected.
Portraying a demanding character on screen tends to leave an actor exhausted. You have essayed two such characters in your latest film. Did the process get physically taxing?
It is always physically taxing, because you almost give close to 8-9 months of your life playing a certain character. You are thinking in a different way and also changing the pattern of your thinking. It is definitely a exhausting process. However, things have been slightly different for me. In the initial 19-20 years of my life, before I started doing theatre, I realised that I act like a certain person. When I talk to you, I have a certain perception of myself and I act according to that. So, it just started getting quite boring. I thought, this is just one kind of acting that I have been doing. So, let me act like two - three different personalities every year and get paid. So, I started acting (laughs). See, it does get taxing. But, having said that, there are skills that you need to develop for each and every film. Like in Dhoni, it was cricket. In my next film, I go to Nasa and almost become an astronaut. Its just that I wont land on the moon (smiles).
Acting is a very delicate job. I have to convince you that I am somebody else
Was there any specific training that you had to go through, especially for your second character?
One of the skills I had to develop was Martial Arts. That's primarily because just before my character is introduced in the film, during the flashback, the audience (and characters in the film) are introduced to the other guy, who is established because of his fighting skills. I have 50 – 60 seconds in the film to prove that I am such a great fighter. So, we had to ensure the skills were next level. We went to Bangkok and stayed there for a month. Everyday, I went through 12 hours of weapon training.. Let me tell you that I have already had a basic training in martial arts much before I started doing TV, but I never got the chance to show it. But, despite the basic training, we were investing 12 hours everyday for month. Just for those 50 seconds, where we have to create the illusion that the story you have been told is right and he is a good fighter.
Of course, it has to be the story. I think the most important thing is, there should be something I should not completely comprehend or understand. Hence, in order to understand that, I will do the film. If I already know how to do it, I will never do it. No matter how commercially viable the film is, I will not touch it. I will give you an example for it. So, when MS Dhoni released, I had three films back to back. I was suppose to shoot for it immediately, but for some reason, the film (Paani) that I was suppose to shoot for right after Dhoni’s release didn’t start. I had already prepared for close to 10 months for this film. Suddenly, I had a gap of 3-4 months in between. During this period, many filmmakers, including some who I really wanted to work with, came with their scripts. Somehow, those scripts were not appealing to me. Something was missing.. I knew that I couldn’t do it, so I didn’t do it. Also, I was preparing for a play. I could have done any of those films and probably there was 50-50% chances of them being successful. Plus, I would have definitely got a pay cheque for it which would have been huge. Saying no to that for a play, which nobody has seen till now, just tells me something about myself. The very fact that I need those 3-4 months of excitement where I should not know how to do things and I just try to figure it out. You see, the process has to be exciting. So, this is one thing I definitely want in a script to say yes to it. If you see all those films that I have signed, and the 4-5 other projects that are coming up after this, there is something that will make you wanna ask - how will he do it? That is exactly what I would like to ask myself. And, that is why I am doing it (smiles).
In my next film, I go to Nasa and almost become an astronaut. Its just that I won't land on the moon
Many actors continue to dread the arrival of Friday, which marks the day of their film's release. What is your state of mind during the opening weekend of your film?
Well, I have worked very hard for all the 54 characters that I have essayed, which includes the ones from both theatre and films. Now, if you look at my films. For Byomkesh... I had worked a lot. The d-day arrived, it didn't get a good opening. Weekend was miserable. By Monday, I was completely okay. I wasn't even forcing myself to act normal. For MS Dhoni too, I had worked hard. The film got a fantastic opening, and continued to do well during the weekend. But, it was the same feeling on Monday again. Ideally, I should have been flipping, but I was very normal. So, I cannot let these 2-3 days of spike affect the 7-8 months that I have invested in a film. I am not future obsessed at all. I don't think about Friday, because I know I am gonna be normal by Monday. But, during those 7-8 months of hard work, if I don't get something right, I can't sleep. It's not that I have to prove a point to something or someone, it's just very personal. So, I am always very concerned about the process.
What is that one thing you love about being a star?
Honestly, I don't look at it that way. People may look at me as a star if I have given a hit today. Tomorrow, if two films don't do well, they may not consider me a star. So, people's perception keeps changing. In my head, the day when I dropped out of my college in the third year, despite knowing it was a premiere institution and I could have stayed there for another year to earn a degree. But, I didn't do that. Somehow, I mustered up the courage to drop out. I went on to dance behind Aishwarya Rai and Shahid Kapoor, which made me very happy. So, the day I decided to follow my dream and do something that I really wanted to do, I was a star. From that day in 2006 to now, there is not a single day where I have regretted my decision. I have enjoyed every day of my life and enjoyed being a superstar (smiles).
I cannot let these 2-3 days of spike (opening weekend at BO) affect the 7-8 months that I have invested in a film














